UPDATE: March 27th 2014. I went to my oncologist this morning. I had blood work last week in preparation. All the standard blood work and a liver panel were done to ensure that my liver is functioning properly.
Six weeks ago, I had an MRI that showed a few presumably cancerous nodes in my liver. With my oncologists measuring and monitoring, I started my “oral therapy” a la Bill Henderson’s protocol based on Dr. Joanna Budwig’s approach. Basically, I have a shake in the morning with a lot of supplements and I follow a strict vegetarian diet (with lots more supplements). I have a big salad every day. I don’t eat meat or dairy. I must minimize my stress all around.
At first, I think my oncologist was a little skeptical. To be honest, even I had to admit my own trepidation at the start. My own mindset was slowly changing and I was working on convincing my own self that I could cure my own cancer.
Today, I went into the office and had my vitals taken. My blood pressure was slightly elevated and I felt a little anxious about getting the results of the blood tests.
I didn’t have to wait long. My doctor came in and we went over the results of my tests. To my great relief, he said that my blood test results said that my liver is “as healthy as a horse.” My numbers indicated above average liver performance all around.
What a huge relief!
In fact, the numbers were overall better than the same work done before I started my cancer treatment protocol. Clearly, what I’ve been doing has been working!
I was especially pleased when my doctor started talking about having me reconnect my ostomy. That’s a big sign that he’s not that worried any more about cancer spreading in my body. His entire demeanor was almost giddy compared to our first two appointments. I think he was as thrilled as I was with the results!
We ended our appointment on a very positive note and confirmed my appointment for my MRI to verify how the nodes in my liver are doing. I’m declaring they are shrinking or gone by then. Time will tell.
As I was going down the elevator, I had a rush of emotions. Relief, laughter, tears of happiness, joy and gratitude. I was crying for no reason with a big smile upon my face. If felt like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders.
Funny thing is, that even after losing 35 pounds, I didn’t realize the psychological weight I’d been managing in my own head. I’d been shaping my own mindset, convincing myself that a cancer cure was possible. I’ve been keeping my stress down. But still, I didn’t know what I didn’t know.
Now I know I can cure my cancer.
Cancer is scary. It’s tough to deal with conceptually and with cancer treatment. The uncertainty. The time between blood test results. The anticipation of what the doctor is going to say. Wondering if my cancer treatment protocol was working.
Thankfully, I can wonder less now and have that much more confidence in my healing process. I’m not completely “cured” yet, but I know the changes I’ve made to my lifestyle are healing me now and will keep me healthy for the rest of my, hopefully, very long, healthy life.
If you think you can, or you think you can’t, either way, you’re right.
~ Henry Ford
Nobody likes pessimistic, cynical of negative people. Why? Because that negative energy is actually harmful to more than the mood in the room.
In fact, if you are diagnosed with cancer, negativity can kill! No matter what cancer cure therapy you choose, your mindset is a critical factor in your recovery and continuing health.
Henry Ford said, “If you think you can, or you think you can’t, you’re right.”
Well, Robert Geiger says, “If you think your cancer can be cured, or you don’t think it can be cured, you’re right.”
When I first got my diagnosis, fortunately for me, I was still pressing the “pain button” frequently enough to numb both the pain of surgery and the psychological pain of “stage 4 cancer.” As if that wasn’t enough, looking at myself in the mirror was a horror show. I looked like I walked into a Samurai sword. Everything I learned about my diagnosis was BAD.
I remember breaking down into tears at least once an hour. I didn’t even know why half the time. I recall talking to my sister about feeling completely lost in the woods. What’s my purpose? Was there a point to my life, now that things looked so bleak?
Clearly, my first task was to work through my psychological pain. I needed a major mindset adjustment if I was going to make it.
It helped to find out that I was not alone. Many people have the same problem with a positive mindset after getting such bad news. That point was driven home for me when I listened to Dr. Lissa Rankin’s TEDx talk, Is there scientific proof we can heal ourselves? Listen to it below and you’ll see what I mean.
Dr. Lissa Rankin: Is there scientific proof we can heal ourselves?
I’ll summarize one of her stories for you. Dr. Rankin tells about a man who read about a treatment that was said to have great promise for his cancer. He got his doctor to give him this treatment and his cancer cleared up. Shortly after that, the man read that the story of the treatment’s efficacy were greatly over stated. His confidence in his cancer sure was crushed. His cancer came back shortly thereafter.
Here’s the interesting part. His doctor thought that his recovery should not have happened the first time! So the doctor decided to do a little experiment. He told the man that there was a brand new better version of the drug and would like to start the therapy immediately. The man immediately brightened up, all excited about his new cancer cure. The doctor proceeded to give him a course of saline solution (water). The result? His cancer completely went away.
Sadly, the man caught a news report that declared the new drug a complete bust. Shortly after that, the man died.
His confidence and positive mental attitude created not just the possibility for a cancer cure, but the cure itself!
There are numerous cases like this that the medical profession calls, “spontaneous remission.” That means there is no medical reason they should be alive. But they are.
The Solution is Mindset
The solution is obvious. It was their Mindset!
You may think that’s just Pollyanna. You may think I’m suggesting you paste a smile over a sad face even if you don’t feel like it. Nothing could be farther from the truth.
The fact is, you have to process your emotions, no matter what they might be. There’s nothing wrong with feeling bad, being angry, feeling cheated by life or just being afraid. It’s perfectly natural. But emotions are not the truth. Fearing something does not make it the truth.
A cancer curing mindset is one that holds onto the possibility that cancer can be cured and you can cure your cancer. The good news is that you can know and be confident knowing that cancer can be cured. You can know that YOU can cure your own cancer. You can choose to trust. There’s plenty of people who are more than just surviving cancer. They are thriving in their lives.
Finally, there’s no downside to adjusting your mindset and believing in the possibility of life.
Over the years, I’ve had several of those moments where I realized that I needed to buy the next larger waist size in pants, and the next larger jacket size. If that wasn’t insult enough, those damned dress shirts with a tie where strangling me!
Don’t you just hate that? I hate that. Why does this keep happening!
“It Won’t Kill You…Today” ~ Lizard
- I’ve always known that some things are better to eat than other things.
- I’ve always known that eating less is better than eating more.
- I’ve always known that exercising is required for good health.
So what happened?
When faced with making the healthiest possible choice for me vs. eating something a little tastier or having seconds or dessert, my Lizard Brain speaks up and tries to seduce my good senses.
But my good senses don’t give up without a fight. My good senses speak up and remind me of what I know to be good for me. But my Lizard Brain pipes up and says, “don’t worry, it won’t kill you…today. And you can make a better choice… tomorrow.”
I don’t know about you, but my Lizard Brain speaks with forked tongue. You see, Lizard Brain is slicker than snot on a glass door knob. Lizard wants to see the dessert tray. Lizard wants the creme sauce. Lizard wants to add bacon. Lizard wants the one pound super burger with extra blue cheese, double bacon and curly cheese fries. Lizard can wait until tomorrow to have a Salad.
And the irony is that my Lizard Brain always sounds so reasonable. Lizard is right, it won’t kill me today. Of course it won’t! Lizard is right!
Over time, I continued to listen to my ever-more-reasonable Lizard Brain, because…,well,… I kept not dying the next day!
Oh, Good, I’m Not Alone
I started to notice that other people appeared to be acquainted with their Lizard Brains, too. Of course, I was relieved to know that I was not the only one. Clearly, Lizard must know what he’s doing.
My Lizard Brain was telling me not to worry, it was just a belly ache from some bad buffet food…all the way into the Emergency Room. If you’ve been reading this blog, you know that on January 10th, 2014, I had a cancerous tumor that was blocking my colon removed and then got a diagnosis of stage IV colon cancer.
My Lizard Brain was WRONG. On January 10th, I got the message, it WILL kill me…TODAY!
THAT was the wake up call. That smooth talking, sickly sweet, soothing, slithering Lizard Brain had me lulled into a sleepy stupor. But the pain that day woke me up with a shocking realization!
I COULD HAVE DIED, TODAY!
My Lizard Brain, that miserable, lying, slithering sycophant was trying to KILL ME! But I have to sadly admit, I was his willing fool for following his advice over and over, year after year.
Well, not any more.
Today, I can make a better choice. Just one better choice each time I sit down to eat. One better choice at a time.
It’s payback time, Lizard Brain. You’ve had your 15 minutes, now it’s my turn to be healthy and heal myself from the damage we did to our body. Enough of you, Lizard Brain, Be Gone!
I had no idea how much I took my seemingly good health for granted until January 10th, 2014.
My assumption has always been that other people got Cancer. Cancer was always something more conceptual than real. We donate money to causes that help other people with Cancer.
But more and more people that I know either know people, have family members or even have had cancer themselves.
But NOT ME! That’s just inconceivable.
And then the fragile hair holding Cancer’s Sword of Damocles at bay broke and it became personal for me. I was told I had Stage IV Colon Cancer. And as if that wasn’t enough, there were also metastasis in my lymph nodes around the tumor and several small nodes in my Liver.
Fortunately, the pain killers helping me recover from the radical surgery to remove the tumor in my colon numbed my response to the news…but that was just the first week. As the pain killers wore off, the emotional roller coaster ride really kicked in. I was emotionally brittle, finding myself bouncing between anger, sorrow, fear, anxiety and other states I can’t quite put in words.
I also found myself questioning everything about my life. Was I a good dad? A good husband? Was this or that a mistake? Should I have done it differently? Did I waste years of my life? What about my plans for the future? What if I only have some few years instead of decades?
People post memes on facebook with pithy sayings all the time. Sayings like, “Live every day like it’s your last day.” Well, what does that really mean? All of a sudden, I was seriously asking myself all kinds of questions like this. My last day? Might that be a lot sooner than I thought?
When someone tells you that your plans for another 30 or so years of life were grossly in error, and that you maybe have just a few years in stead, it redefines the definition of “surreal.”
The first 30 days or so I felt like I was walking around in a bad dream. I just could not wrap my brain around it. When I tried, the emotional roller coaster took another wild turn.
I learned the hard way that the strand of horse hair holding Cancer’s sword over our heads is too easily broken. Life is as fragile as that strand of hair. We all need to accept this and look at our lives. Take stock right now.
I’ve learned that cancer is something that we all have in our bodies since we were born. It’s just that our immune systems have grown weaker over time… as we don’t take care of our bodies over time. At some point, we are stressing our systems beyond our ability to deal with the normal cellular mutations that we normally would just seek out and destroy. At the cellular level, it’s a complicated series of chemical reactions. But the result is the same – cancer.
If you can know this, as I know it now, then you have the chance to make some changes that can literally save and extend your life by decades. I’m writing this blog to help and inspire you to make better choices than I did before January 10th. The choice is yours, so choose wisely.
One of the key things to do when treating cancer is to reduce stress on your immune system. What this means is that you need to stop giving yourself things to stress about. Things like this…
- Worrying about the wrong people
- Focusing all your attention on future events instead of present moments
- Delaying decisions
- Saying “yes” when you really mean “no”
- Buying stuff you don’t need
- Stop Gossiping
- Filling every waking moment with activity